I watched a video this morning on Facebook of a beautiful mother bird preparing her nest, and then raising 6 little ones all in 40 days (watch it here: 🐦 ) I love watching birds and it was amazing but then I became emotional...emotions in a new way haven't felt before.
Maybe because 50 is approaching or maybe because my nest is empty. But then I remember how my dad would say, "This too shall pass..."
Holidays for the next year are going to be difficult for me. I was only a child when I had my first baby and now 33 1/2 years later all three are on their own. Even though they still need me and we are in touch, life is going to be quite an adjustment. I never developed any hobbies or interests for myself growing up before I became a mother. Being a mom was my interest and was what kept me motivated. So what do I do now?
They say not to dwell on the past and I thought that was only true if you dwell on the bad things that happened in your life. I realize I dwell on my good memories and like to relive them. While they are good, they often make me sad because I miss them amd my heart aches for them. Because of this know I miss out on what could be for today. I now need to consciously practice focusing on both yesterday's memories and plan to make new ones.
I'm so grateful I am not completely alone in this next chapter of my life and that my husband is here for me and tries to understand.
