Wow!

Wow! This day has gone by fast. Maybe being gone an extra day or two out of the week helps pile up the mail creating extra work that actually keeps me busy. Either that or I'm just too efficient. I love having lots and lots of paperwork! (I know I'm a geek but if I don't feel productive I'm not happy.)

I was feeling depressed last night at bedtime. I don't know why. Maybe it's this cold weather? Maybe it's from coming down off of all the holiday fun and events over the last four days just getting to me with the beginning of a new work week? I dunno. I've been okay during the day today, probably cause I've been busy but now that I am not, it's coming back. I say that because I would normally say I am looking forward to getting off to go home - which I am but I'm not if that makes any sense. You see, it's Charlie's first day of school for the new semester tonight so I won't get to see him until really late and the kids won't get to see him at all. Of course don't get me wrong, I do look forward to the kids and the dog (who all endlessly love me the first five minutes I'm home) but making dinner is always much more fun when he and I do it together. It's also nice when we eat together as a family. It's just too quiet around there without him. TTFN, hopefully tomorrow will be a better day and I won't be so hum drum.

I gotta hand it to him

My husband is too kind. I know if I were in his shoes, I wouldn't be as strong as he is. This weekend we went to a surprise birthday party for an old friend of mine. Well the friend I am talking about was friends with me when I was with the ex. In fact this friend had actually gone to school with the ex. So at this party everyone has now and again brought up the ex's name or talked about the boys when they were young etc. Well this being the past that Charlie was never involved at that time, you'd think it would bother him that people don't think about it the way we do - the past, all is forgotten. But he doesn't seem to let it bother him. I always wondered how I would do as a step mom but I don't think I could do it as well has he has being a step dad. I don't know if I could take kids who have a different mother and try my hardest to be a mom to them into the relationship without feeling highly uncomfortable. So I gotta give Charlie some appreciation cause I don't know how he does it without feeling so "out of place" when we are at parties like that or when my family has from time to time mentioned the ex or something from the past that excludes him. I know I wouldn't want to hear about his ex or what she did or people asking about where she is (Yes, people come right out and ask me all too often about my ex and what he is up to...and the nerve of them - why would I know or care anyway? - He's my ex for God's sake!). I'd be a little pissed after a while, but I guess that's what to expect with a mixed family with a past behind them. (All but the asking about the ex part anyway.)

Thanksgiving wrap up

Our Thanksgiving weekend is going well, all but one incident. Shortly after eating dinner, Savannah had to go to the emergency room. We were all sitting around visiting about to watch a movie and Savannah was playing with one of Grandma's pillows from her new couches and was rolling around on the floor wrestling and tackling it like she does to the boys. All of a sudden she started to cry like I've never heard her cry before. Jacob said he had heard something pop, and that's when she started to wail. I picked her up thinking she had popped the joints in her fingers and went to kiss them better but she just screamed holding her wrist. Poor little thing! Our first thought was that she either sprained her wrist or broke something since she was in so much pain. Charlie (knowing what to do) instantly immobilized her arm to relieve the pain and held it tight to her chest as we ran off to the hospital. Luckily mom only lives about a mile away so we were there and back within a half an hour. She had dislocated her elbow from the socket. The doctor popped it back in and she was as good as new, a little sad, but she wasn't in any more pain. Scare the crap out of me! And here we are thinking of having another?

To wrap up the rest of this weekend, yesterday we put up the tree, today we'll go window shopping and to a birthday party, and tomorrow is Harry Potter! I wish we could have four day weekends all the time! But then again, it's not always fun to be so busy either!